calendar girl.

If I am lost for a day; try and find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy just got harder and harder each day
December is the darkest and
June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right
While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night
Calendar girl whos in love with the world
Stay alive Calendar Girl whos in love with the world
Stay alive I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there, please don't let me die
But I can't live forever, I can't always breath
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay alive Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay alive January, February, March, April, May I'm alive
June , July, August, September, October I'm alive
November, December, yah all through the winter
I'm alive I'm alive

crushinggg. <3

so, i'm crushing pretty hard...even though i pretty much know it could never happen for me.

"hanna at mcdonalds: hi i'd like a mccutie with a double order of mcsex-me
sauce."

..yah that pretty much sums it up.
dammnn i want you bad.
you're a hard one to snaggg.

friiidayy.

another lonnng week, but a good one. school was bleghh as usual. but we had yesterday off school, which was fabbb. steph & i went downtown, to robson & yaletown. i realized how much freaking money i'm going to have to make to have a decent life at all. we went to milestones to eat lunchh, which was delish. saw an ex-lover look-a-like, which was pretty depressing. brought up some of those feelings that i've been trying to push away but just can't seem to get rid of. in actual fact, it was worse to bring it up again now...but anyways. soo vancouver was aweesome. then i went to laura's bday party at laser tag biottch. that was freaking funnn. harrypotter+chochang (+wolverine..butyah). we made quite a team, did we not. i actually think they were in to get you, karbs. you couldn't have actually gotten minus both games..could you? yah, so i sucked, but it was so much fun. then we went back to lor's for pizzaa & cake & presents & twister (needless to say, there were some very interresting poses, as in pics) & suchh. it was a great day.

my week..

ohhmy, it's been a fun time but hard work this past week...last friday we had the walkathon (AKA: the torture trail), which was all right for having a looonnnggg chat and a loooonnnnngggerr walk. yah, it was pretty hardcore. and a good workout. so after, steph and i make off to go find the european food store, where we got some stufff to eat. it was daandy. i got jones soda and it was mmmm. so then on saturday, i go over to steph's and we get on with our trip to the STATES. ahhyah. i LOVE going to the states, its just like far enough away to be interersting...but it's not really that far. i got a large ice cream cone from the dairy and OHHMYYGOSHH. it was sooo big, i wish i took a picture. BUT THEN, steph goes ALL THE WAY and gets a SUPER. HOLY, this thing was so massive it could feed kids in africa for a whole month. kay so then on sunday, my family had our thanksgiving dinner, which was reallly nice, as usual. so nice my cousin sarah, erik and i had to just make it that much better by watching silent hill. OHHHMYY, that movie was SO weird. then on monday, my mom left for moncton, new brunswick till friday. that's pretty much when the depression began. it was SO sad, cause my family pretty much cannot function without my mom. so then it was a tough week, till friday when she came home. on friday after school i hung out with steph & her mom & isabella, her cousin who's absolutely adorable, and i must say, LOVES me. we went for a bit of sushi, then i got a ride to rachel's for her party. we went to metrotown to watch the guardian, which was...SOOOOOAMAZING. it was the best movie i've seen in such a long time, and it was one of those movies where you just get to know the characters so well and you feel like you know them..and you go through everything they do in the movie. it was SO perfect. so then i meet up with my mom...and we went home. pretty much that was my week. here are just a few pics from the states..and yehaa.

p.s: steph's parents, steph, kim, emily, emeka (no idea how to spell that- steph's uber-cool amazing japanese student, who left last sunday..*tear*) and i went to the states.

p.p.s: just a little extra on the states: we went shopping @ bellis fair for like what, 4 hours, then we went to steph's condo, which is always a party. steph had a twosix of malibu mmmm, and when we went to the grocery store earlier that day we bought a huge bottle of mike's hard, and smirnoff ice, obv. using emeka to buy it for us with her ID. it was GRAND. so we had steph's malibu, and those two things, and we decided, hey we need some more. so we trekked off to this ghetto store by steph's condo, looking to get some more. but emeka forget her ID, so we just bought some orange juice for chase. and chocolate. and candy. and then we went down to the 'dancing barn' playground and drank on top a tower. there was some stuff that went on there that the others would KILL me for saying, so i won't. but it was freaking hilarious.